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After going through the Johnny Cash tracked tag for a while, I am annoyed as usual. I have to say that I don’t understand people who say they “want a love like Johnny and June”. I’m fairly sure that anyone who thinks/says this must be completely idealising it. June had to watch him destroy himself with drugs, alcohol and random sexual encounters for over a decade. It was difficult and heartbreaking and there were times when they barely spoke at all because she couldn’t handle it any more. The one time she really tried to leave him he locked her in a room in nothing but a towel and wouldn’t let her get her suitcase or come out until she promised she was going to stay. This sounds romantic to some people at first glance because she eventually knocked on his door and promised not to leave but it’s actually incredibly manipulative and as someone who has been in a similar situation I can feel safe in saying that it is a largely unpleasant experience.

[For people who may question that anecdote (and this has happened before when I have discussed the topic with people) you can find it written in John’s own words in Cash - The Autobiography of Johnny Cash, Part 3 - Port Richey, right at the end of Chapter 5. Page 182 in my copy but I imagine this may vary.]

For a large amount of time their “relationship” was bordering on mentally/emotionally abusive and was completely dysfunctional. Yes, they eventually settled and had children and he calmed down and it seemed wonderful and it is nice that two people can have a bond strong enough to make it through such circumstances but why would you wish for something like that? Teenagers should do a lot more thinking about the real world and the real impact of things and spend less time living in rainbow fairy land posting ridiculously immature or self-centred posts on Tumblr.

Don’t get me wrong, Johnny Cash is my favourite musician and a great inspiration in my life but he was a total asshole for the majority of his life and I am awed by June every time I think of the fact that she still managed to be in love with him at the end of it all.

I don’t read nearly as much as I used to which makes me sad. Part of the reason is that the main times I read were when I was travelling on trains but now the majority of my journeys involve tubes and buses. Reading on tubes is awkward because the background noise is much more invasive and reading on buses makes me feel sick. I do still get some reading done but I hope to read more at home soon when college exams are completely over and I have very little to do until January.

Some of my favourite books

1. Anything Middle Earth related
2. In Cold Blood by Truman Capote
3. A Series of Unfortunate Events by Lemony Snicket
4. Anything Johnny Cash related
5. The Last Cigarette by Simon Gray
6. Treasure Island by Robert Louis Stevenson
7. Anything fantasy by Diana Wynne Jones
8. The Arthurian novels and The Wanderings of Odysseus by Rosemary Sutcliffe
9. Children’s novels by Philip Ridley
10. Geoffrey Strangeways by Jill Murphy

I could go on but it would be a while before I stopped as I own over 1000 books and my reading speed is such that I finished the LOTR trilogy in two weeks when I was about six so as you can imagine I have read many, many books. My other favourites are the same mix of child/teen fantasy and some serious contemplative adult novels thrown in for good measure.

Day 6 - What band or musician is most important to you?

1. Man-Pupu-Nyor in Russia
2. The Johnny Cash museum in Nashville
3. Mount Olympus in Greece
4. The locations used for LOTR in New Zealand
5. Black Forest in Germany

I could never imagine doing this. When I get into game mode I don’t want to be touched and anyone who attempts to communicate with me is shouted at. 

My ideal gamer couple set up is in two separate rooms ignoring each other.

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Since Day 3 was supposed to be yesterday I thought I’d do Day 4 today as well to catch up. Plus the answer is pretty short.

My actual username (miavonhyde) is the name I use around friends and family.

The name of my blog (Thoughts & fiction) exists because the majority of what I post is either journal style posts about my thoughts or pieces of writing.

This was for yesterday but I decided to leave it until this morning so I could write about the entire day instead of just part of it.

I had stayed the night at my best friend Toady’s so I woke up there and we did our usual lazy morning routine of taking almost an hour to get out of bed. Then I stretched around and stared into space while he went across the road to get some milk so we could have breakfast. We watched two episodes of Supernatural (we’re going the entire way through and only have two episodes left until Season 6) and then I had to change out of my pyjamas and leave. Got the bus to the tube station and then sat on the tube for an hour to get home. Spent about half an hour on the phone to my partner having a serious discussion and then I had to leave for a housing meeting with the council. Met up with my EIS support worker (group I work with because I’ve suffered from psychosis in the past) and we tried to see if I was eligible for any housing yet but so far nothing. I still have other options but they involve waiting a few months. Splendid! I walked back home and then spent the rest of the day lazing around the house (travelling that much exhausted me) watching TV, playing Skyrim, talking to people online and watching films. And that was yesterday.

Likes:

1. My friendship network
2. Enjoying food
3. Playing video games
4. Watching films
5. Singing along to Johnny Cash
6. Organising files and general tidying/sorting
7. Learning new things
8. Travelling to new places
9. Having serious/intelligent discussions
10. Me time

Dislikes:

1. Having to socialise more than I’m comfortable with
2. People who get carried away with something because of emotions
3. People who attempt to tell me my mental health problems don’t exist
4. Nausea and throwing up
5. Not having enough money to go out when I want to
6. Wilful ignorance
7. People who think not reading or enjoying knowledge is cool
8. Measuring success by material possessions
9. Not being trusted
10. My laziness/talent for procrastination 

I would disagree. In some cases a person needs to learn how to get through something on their own so they don’t end up being dependent on everyone around them and someone who truly loves them would recognise that. I never realised how many of these popular Tumblr sayings just didn’t work in the real world.

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tokujoe:

Leonard Nimoy - I walk the Line 

Spock covering Johnny Cash 

The world can’t be such a terrible place if this exists.

Is it me or does anyone who genuinely believes this sentiment need to pull their head out of their ass a little?

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adrianshhh:

Amusing Ourselves to Death by Stuart McMillen (May 2009)

Aldous Huxley (Author: “Brave New World”) vs. George Orwell (Author: Nineteen Eighty-Four

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